A Product of Imagination and Consequence

The walls,
coldest of its kind
pierces your sight
in a different way
with barb wires
and moss in green-
embracing your soul.
Still you manage to see
beyond the usual,
and as the rays of
sun touches your chest
illuminating the scripted
letters (BSN-RN),
you remember that
in the not so distant past
you long for this day
to simply pass.


Cinema Nostalgia

here are some random eclectic movie lines that constantly flashes before me...

" I want to give you everything, but I am nothing".
"We have each other, that's everything."

"...some kind of abstraction. But there is no real me: only an entity, something illusory. And though I can hide my cold gaze, and you can shake my hand and feel flesh gripping yours and maybe you can even sense our lifestyles are probably comparable... I simply am not there. "
- American Psycho

"Women! What can you say? Who made 'em? God must have been a fuckin' genius. The hair... They say the hair is everything, you know. Have you ever buried your nose in a mountain of curls... just wanted to go to sleep forever? Or lips... and when they touched, yours were like... that first swallow of wine... after you just crossed the desert. Tits. Hoo-ah! Big ones, little ones, nipples staring right out at ya, like secret searchlights. Mmm. Legs. I don't care if they're Greek columns... or secondhand Steinways. What's between 'em... passport to heaven. I need a drink. Yes, Mr Sims, there's only two syllables in this whole wide world worth hearing: pussy. Hah! Are you listenin' to me, son? I'm givin' ya pearls here."

-Scent of a Woman

"It's the sense of touch. In any real city, you walk, you know? You brush past people, people bump into you. In L.A., nobody touches you. We're always behind this metal and glass. I think we miss that touch so much, that we crash into each other, just so we can feel something."

"It was one of those days when it's a minute away from snowing and there's this electricity in the air, you can almost hear it. And this bag was, like, dancing with me. Like a little kid begging me to play with it. For fifteen minutes. And that's the day I knew there was this entire life behind things, and... this incredibly benevolent force, that wanted me to know there was no reason to be afraid, ever. Video's a poor excuse, I know. But it helps me remember... and I need to remember... Sometimes there's so much beauty in the world I feel like I can't take it, like my heart's going to cave in."
-American Beauty

and yes, this last one is not only eclectic but also a haunting movie line as well...

"I care about my job sir, I care about you!"


The Limbo

Too ill to sleep.

Too tired to stay awake,
but the sickness is on its way.

Sweat, chills, nausea.
Pain and craving.

A need like nothing else
I've ever known
will soon take hold of me.
It's on its way.


Orange Overdose

a bit tired, maybe
best not to say more.

bedways is rightways now.
hear angel trumpets
and devil trombones.

and you, are invited.

but enough of words,
actions speak louder than.
action now.

this would sharpen you up
and make you ready for
a bit of the old ultra-violence


IV Insertion

Prepare the patient
simulan mo ang lahat
sa pakikipagkilala at pagkilala.

Gather equipments
mahalaga ang lakas ng loob
at kaunting kumpyensa.

Organize Supplies
magkaroon ng sariling sistema
na susundin.

Apply tourniquet
iwasan ang sobrang paghihigpit o
sobrang kaluwagan.

Locate Vein
hanapin mo ang kanyang
mga kiliti.
Cleanse Site
panatiliing bukas ang inyong

Put on Gloves
maging maingat sa mga
personal na detalye.

Apply traction
tandaan na mas mainam
kung alam mo rin ang
inyong pagkakaiba.

Position Needle
isipin mo na lamang na
binibenta mo ang iyong sarili.

Insert Needle
idolohin mo si Joey Marquez
'bes fut always forward tsong'.

Advance the Catheter
alamin ang kanyang mga
ayaw at paborito.

Release the Tourniquet
paminsan-minsan bigyan mo
siya ng oras na mapag-isa.

Remove the Needle
subukin mong tanggalin
ang mga bagay na
magdudulot sa kanya ng sakit.

Connect IV tubing
kilalanin mo ang kanyang
pamilya at angkan.

Secure Catheter
mag-isip ka ng positibo
sabihin mo ito ng paulit-ulit
"hindi ako mababasted".

Clean Up
isaisip mo lang ang lahat ng ito
at humanda ka nang
pumorma at magpapogi.